Seeing Unequal Doubles?

Confession: I don't see myself as skinny or slim...and yet sometimes I do. Let me explain.

Everyday I see people. For the women around me, they seem, on average, the same size. The variations are there, where some are bigger and some smaller. The weird thing for me is that I see myself as one of the averaged sized people...I say weird because it seems most people would class me as smaller than average. Yes, people comment on my size often enough, but in my mind, that's just their opinion. I am just like they are.

But here's the crazy part. When I go shopping for clothes, or hear talk about weight, or end up in a discussion with someone about clothes sizes, it hits home that my mind is playing tricks on me. It seems I am not the average size that I think I am. I also have moments when I look in a full-length mirror and say, "I AM skinny!" (to myself of course). Based on the brand, I can wear a size zero or size 00 (or size Ooo...as a friend joked) or even a size 2, and it seems the average that I oft "relate to" are sizes above that, particularly based on experiences with trying to find clothes in my size.

And then the cycle begins again...

Some believe I am too skinny; others think I am just fine (pun intended). I don't stress over it. My goal is to be the healthiest me possible, whatever size that is. I'm quite happy being the way I am now. I admit thought there are areas that need some work ("tightening" and toning). That'd just be the icing on the cake :-). OperationGetFit will fix that!

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