Phases - Peaks and Valleys
We all go through phases in life. The character of each varies, but it's oft true that the passing from one to another is by peaks and valleys.
In recent times, I've been going through a phase...or phases. One the one hand, I'm happy and fulfilled with aspects of my life, particularly those parts that require giving of myself in one way or another. On the other hand, I am struggling. It's as though I feel stuck and the way out is evading me. The latter is not with me daily, but it feels constant...regularly paced...at intervals.
Here's my theory - the heat that we've been experiencing has sapped much energy from my body. But the lack of mental kinetic energy to push through and make certain things happen is just not there as I'd like it to be. It's though I'm watching myself, having gauged where I need to be, yet trying to get there or reaching my hand toward the goal, but not even getting close, or being close enough, yet far away. I was lamenting this to people around me in recent times, and it struck me: some are not overly interested in hearing about my struggles, and no one is not capable of helping...outside of offering up prayer which cannot be underestimated. That's a good thing. It reminded me that in all my struggles - past and present - there's only one way that I make it through. GOD! Lest this be misinterpreted, I am truly grateful for who I have as support in life, and it has helped, even as I unload. But let's face it - some things people can help with but only to a point, beyond which it's all up to me.
I was reminded that much of this has to do with my mindset. The external forces that have pushed part of my life into this "valley" are just elements of life. The world being the world is being what it is; my reactions - frustration, fear, lows and sometimes anger and sadness - are what I need to not hold on to. It's up to me to work on renewing my mind to overcome the lingering of natural reaction. God knows it ain't easy, but surely not impossible.
This weekend was particularly hard, ironically so because I had some pretty good times interacting with people who have struggled way more than I could imagine. There were specific things that were bothering me, more than originally realised. They affected my ability to sleep peacefully and to concentrate. But it was also needed. My past growth experiences were not born from "smooth sailing", so I anticipate the newness that these phases will bring. I've determined that I'm not in the habit of handing over power to things (and people) who have no business having it. As long as it takes, these too shall pass...After all, God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, LOVE and self-control/sound mind (2 Tim 1:7).
Amen!
In recent times, I've been going through a phase...or phases. One the one hand, I'm happy and fulfilled with aspects of my life, particularly those parts that require giving of myself in one way or another. On the other hand, I am struggling. It's as though I feel stuck and the way out is evading me. The latter is not with me daily, but it feels constant...regularly paced...at intervals.
Here's my theory - the heat that we've been experiencing has sapped much energy from my body. But the lack of mental kinetic energy to push through and make certain things happen is just not there as I'd like it to be. It's though I'm watching myself, having gauged where I need to be, yet trying to get there or reaching my hand toward the goal, but not even getting close, or being close enough, yet far away. I was lamenting this to people around me in recent times, and it struck me: some are not overly interested in hearing about my struggles, and no one is not capable of helping...outside of offering up prayer which cannot be underestimated. That's a good thing. It reminded me that in all my struggles - past and present - there's only one way that I make it through. GOD! Lest this be misinterpreted, I am truly grateful for who I have as support in life, and it has helped, even as I unload. But let's face it - some things people can help with but only to a point, beyond which it's all up to me.
I was reminded that much of this has to do with my mindset. The external forces that have pushed part of my life into this "valley" are just elements of life. The world being the world is being what it is; my reactions - frustration, fear, lows and sometimes anger and sadness - are what I need to not hold on to. It's up to me to work on renewing my mind to overcome the lingering of natural reaction. God knows it ain't easy, but surely not impossible.
This weekend was particularly hard, ironically so because I had some pretty good times interacting with people who have struggled way more than I could imagine. There were specific things that were bothering me, more than originally realised. They affected my ability to sleep peacefully and to concentrate. But it was also needed. My past growth experiences were not born from "smooth sailing", so I anticipate the newness that these phases will bring. I've determined that I'm not in the habit of handing over power to things (and people) who have no business having it. As long as it takes, these too shall pass...After all, God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, LOVE and self-control/sound mind (2 Tim 1:7).
Amen!
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